What to Do Now
Right now, I’m trying to figure out what to do. So many options, so little energy. Don’t get me wrong, my mood is good and physically I feel mostly alright. (Got a bit of a headache but it’s better now than it has been.) I just feel so damn tired, and I don’t really know why. I’m supposed to get a blood test to check up on my malfunctioning thyroid and see if I have Cushing’s Disease, but I haven’t done it yet. I keep forgetting to fast or it’s a day when the lab isn’t open. I’ll get it done eventually. I hope.
For now, I’m impatiently waiting for the release of Jedi: Survivor, the newest Star Wars game and sequel to the fantastic Jedi: Fallen Order. I already have it preordered; I just have to wait until April 27th when it unlocks for download. Thirteen more days… Although I really, really want the bonus content included with the limited edition, I decided to get just the standard edition. I just could not justify the cost of the limited edition (it was like $99… for a GAME!) That’s crazy!! Since I have my current server bills paid in full, I was able to use my ad revenue to pay for the game and then some. I’ll use the leftover for a Mother’s Day present and bird toys, of course. I already have some ideas about what I want to get Mom for her day and Jojo has a favorite brand of toys that I always try to get for him.
A couple days ago, I asked my mom for a short-term loan (I’ll pay her back next month) to get the new Poser 13 (my main 3D art program). Soon after downloading it, I finished a scene that I had started on but stopped working on back in late January of this year. P13 is certainly a LOT faster than its predecessor! That scene that I was working on took a couple of hours to render in full-size back in January with Poser 12. When I rendered it with Poser 13, it rendered fully in 42 minutes! I haven’t really tested too many of the other new features yet. All in good time. I’m not certain that my long-dormant muse has returned but at least I did something art related for the first time in literal months. I want to try to work on some more art today. Maybe some fan art. Star Wars fan art. We shall see. I have loads of ideas but whether I can realize them in my art is quite the question.
I’m still working on all of my Sims 4 stuff for Simularity. I’ve got several mods and mod updates in the works plus some brand-new custom content including my first attempt at walls and floors! I’m still playing the game too. I think I can manage to keep up with both Simularity and my art. I guess only time will tell but I do feel like I’m in a better place than I’ve ever been before. Considering I’ve never been able to balance my time between these two project types before, maybe now’s the time for a positive change?
Right now, I’m trying to decide whether to try again at creating some new art, work on Sims stuff, or replay Jedi: Fallen Order to prepare myself for the upcoming sequel. I don’t know.